blood gushed out and hopes were taken away... if u know what i mean.. super disappointed.

went down to the rink today since its the last day.. was entertaining seeing pple get drenched in chemical treated water.. hah. boring week for me.. thank god its weds alr. and ive got this wk's activities all planned. else i'll be a lost soul slacking at home..
thu - 2.30pm~shasha grooming, 7.30pm~designer viewing.
fri - work, fetch hubby from camp.
sat - day out with hubby.
sun - sentosa

i figured that i should be quite a happy girl now.. ive got a bf who showers me with lotsa love, have a stable cashflow. got friends who are always there for me. what else do i actually expect or want?

back to the topic of future.. giving me the serious headaches recently.. im wondering if i should retake my LCCI diploma in accounting since i alr have my lvl 2 book-keeping cert. but i keep throwing myself questions like "am i really suitable to be an O.L? facing numbers everyday?" but to think bout it, my choices are limited since im living in a stuck up country like singapore. creativity gives u no exits in this country. its all bout business.. marketing, hospitality, management. its all words and words.. somehow im pretty sure i'll be taking up pet grooming. least i'll be furthering something which i really have interest in.. life's a fixed cycle.. theres nothing anyone can do bout it.

went to my uncle douglas' wedding today and it shooked me a lil. was heart warming to see the couple so lovely walking down the aisle. i never wanted a wedding ceremony. to me, weddings ceremonies are plainly entertaining and a total waste of money. its hardly u can earn back the full sum by recieving guests' red packets. uncle douglas held his at regent hotel. slightly above average i would say. everything turned out well. while watching their videos and wedding portfolio, i strangely wished i could have my own too. i could feel how special this very day was to them. with all the videos of the whole ceremony.. it will be sweet to watch it again when their old..

in my situation, i guess its better if i just rom-ed and skip the ceremony stuff. rather get a house, and save up for my future baby. guess im laying more to the practical side.. but its a fact that the money could be put to better use.

been really emotional lately. not having him by my side kills me. its work or home every day. im always in a super low mood and bored sick. thats life. theres nothing that i can do...

alrighty! everybody's asking me to blog. char, hubby, and some others. so alright. a lil quick update on what im tied up with these days. firstly would like to announce that i have decided that mr jason hua will be my future husband. so im doing some costing, planning, calculation on settling down..

been in a really dump mood these days cause he's back at sispec. but well, theres nothin much that i can do. i simply immune myself with work.. lots of work. yeap. im back working as an accounts assistant. or should i say, ive never stopped actually. just that this job has like superbly flexi hours. ^^

hubby and i have passed our half yr mark and everything's still in good shape. we're communicating well, stabling our cash flow, and looking forward to a baby together =) may all kindly congratulate me as i might be expecting! ok. i didnt mean to actually announce nor 'blog it aloud'. just that it is in fact a moment of joy to me. seriously envy young mom's around me. eg- jerica, sandy, cynthia, bifen.. and theres many more.. yes. its difficult to raise a child here in singapore. moreover at such a young age. but well, im confident that i can handle it. of cause, with my hubby by my side. i believe he will be a good father and an amazing husband. save up on the think twice quotes alright.. its already "done" lol. now its just the waiting process.