life hasnt gotten any better since the start of 2006. to be specific. it hasnt been good at all. in fact. its been going down.. deep down. im hating life.. myself.. him.. u.. her.. he.. she.. it.. wadeva! im hating everything thats happening and appearing in my life now. i dunno why but ive been kinda depressed and dead since 2006. he has to sneak into my hse just to see me and be with me. i cant stand it. i cant stand being in this hse without the might word called freedom.

finally went to sch ytd.. lifes been a bore. i dunt even know wad to talk about my life. its just sleep and game and school and eat. wad else? yawn.. woke up at 1 plus watch disc till 3 plus. and started warcrafting. took my warcraft disc out of the store two daes ago. and now i cant live without playing at least one game per dae. lol. i think im falling sick or something. honey says im too heatty. my mouth has been quite bitter since daes ago.. sigh. anything... prolly it can be somehow entertaining to be sick. since its just the same everyday. im broke. uber broke these daes. surviving on singapore cigarettes is making me crazy.. a pack a dae keeps the money away T_T sob. calculated my spending. and thought about it. counting it on an average of 1 pack per dae. 30 daes a month. thats like 300 a month. half of my allowance gone just purely on cigarettes. damn am i so owned by tax. and now in school... im infact studying tax. lets not get into the topic of tax and government. dun wish to get sued or sumfink. oh and cool! been a week since i touch my mahjong tiles. miracle. haha. talkin bout it.. my hands are starting to itch. gonna have a mahjong session tml nite.. hmmm. once my honey ord and starts studying cum working. im gonna go work too. living on that miserable 600 bucks per month aint getting me anywhere. ive still got a heep loads of debt to return. not only people but shops! zzz. owe pot black like 50 dollars for my cue locker. owe fuji ice palace 30 bucks for my skates locker.. omg man.. thats like 80 bucks flying away. owe wyn another 350.. thats like lots and lots man. and if i work at my mom's place i'll be paid like 50 bucks a dae. doing the calculation again.. 5 daes a wk. 4 wks a mnth. thats gonna be 20 daes. 20 multiply by 50 per dae its gonna be a thousand a month. wooo. din know i'll get so much. ok.. im gonna start working asap. im gonna quit shopping. erm.. try and cut down smoking.. quit eating such luxurious stuff. and start clearing the debts and saving money! yeah! im starting to plan again. and hope it works out this time. zzz.