falling realli sick these two daes. feeling damn weak and groggy.. zzz thanks to my darling im feeling much better. he bought sum soupy shit which was yum yum.. well dunno how u spell that shit. bee tai bak or sumthing. yea. and well he fed me my lunch while i was sick in bed. how sweet yea. dun really noe wads happening to me. to quit smoking or not that is the question. i dunt noe wad to do or where to start and wad so ever. is it really me that im alwaes so self centered? i guess i really have to do some self reflection.. haiz. i wanna change myself yet again. of cos to be a better person and apart from that a better girlfriend.. i feel like we are moving apart from character but definitely not by meeting up and intimacy... we are a really close couple as everyone can see. but sumtimes.. things just dun work out so smooth do they? love is just like a potted plant. u have to have the patience to water it and talk to it for it to blossom. i guess time somehow can prove mani things in the future. in life, there are many decisions which have to be concluded by urself and no one else.. i decided to be together with him.. then i should think of ways to make this flower blossom and not to let it wither and die.. i guess its time for me to look into the mirror and look for my true self. who i really am. and who i should become.. i should live up to my nick apg.. attitude problem girl.. but prolly in a good wae. where my attitude rox in the sense that nothing can make me blow up or hurt me.. thats wad i will be aiming for i guess. well wadeva it is. i noe that i really love him from the bottom of my heart and will try to bring the best to this relationship.. i love u. i really do...

ohio! really kazillion ages since i blogged. hmm. well life has been up and down for me. kinda happie with my current lifestyle. studying and dating.. well. recently. i lost my wallet and even made a fuckin police report but few daes later i found it at my darlin's house. haha. my darlin had to study for his n's which has by now passed. last paper todae.. its par-tay time! haha. well. i accompanied him thru his study period. i brought my acconts stuff and studied with him at forum mac. oh and i started my diploma course already.. so excited for to get my cert manz. hehe. newaez. another week and it'll be me and my darlin's one yr three mnths anni. cool huh. im really proud of myself as well as this relationship.. havent been so bloodi serious in a relationship before. oh yea. and we're planning a holidae to hong kong. so fuckin excited yet again. havent confirm the date but most prolly it would be on the 11th.. im planning to work my ass off during his hols and earn tons of cash.. oh! and i finally found my next dream after he fulfilled my dream of a romantic sunset scene.. and that is... a dinner at a really high class restaurant in formal wear.. and im gonna get a black dress and heels and hair-do and a gorgeous bag. and he will be in biz shirt and black pants and leather shoes with a stylish hairdo.. woah. cant wait man. hopefully i can plan this on a christmas. that'll be the biggest gift sia.. gonna pick my sweetie up from sch tml and go par-tay! gotta help me release his stress after this n's... well.. i cut my hair a couple of weeks ago aniwae. its kinda nice. suits me.. and yea! me and my darlin currently have a couple wallet! bought it when i thought i lost my wallet. lame rite.. but though its cute. gonna go get sum slp and wake up at 8.30 tml..