zzz. mondae blues~ went to town todae. billiard totally sucked. fuck billiard. grrr. alrightz. went home kinda earli todae. boring.. -.-

woah. woke up seriousli late todae. round 4+ then slack at hm all the wae. plae FL with my darling.. hehe!~ sleeping marathon~

hmmmz. fun dae todae. reach my dar's hse round 12+ then ate lunch and all. hehe~ slack awhile then went to cine at round 3+ played billiard then went over to meet xiaobai, lynette and rei. together we went down to far east.. eat corochan and ya kun =P. hehe. xiaobai eat non stop sia. then go 5th floor smoke then go take neoprint.. so fun sia. me and dardar went over net's house. omg sia~ her hse is like 4 stories high, got swimming pool, got pool table, got a dua dua golden retriever, can see highway =P lolx. ate hokkien mee which her father cooked. lolx~ alrightz~ then it was like 11+ already, so we went down to sultan. went in club three and chiong. got fucking operation two times. dua du~ take cab home. sianz~

hurhur.. record of the century~ imma so happie todae... me and my darling so loving todae.. never quarrel at all wor! hehe. summore he did sumthing which made me real happie. alrightZ.. first i met him and his mom for lunch at his hse there then we went back to his hse and slp awhile.. afta that we went over to bugis at about 2+. walk walk and sat at the staircase eat sushi. felt so suateng =x then we took a train down to town at bout 5+ and it was damn pack. got this few teng sua bitches who were shouting faster faster. then went we got down they were like pushing us out. cannot control liao! one elbow fly at them =P lalala~ go down town slack slack, fuckin sian so me, winwin, ian, nak and my sweetie went over taka slack. haha! stupid sia. we sat at the stairs and burn ian's pants then we played hide and seek in taka. ok sian alreadi. we plae bomb.. we tie the lighter flint on the spring then use fire burn.. then throw. wooo~ sparks ah~ nice sia.. went back cine and saw sum retards with personal cue, glove and chalk playing pool -.- it took them like 20 sec to think which ball to hit. lame shit.. hmmz. 11.15 lidat took a cab home. sianz~

hmmz. oh gawd.. woke up at like 4+ in the afternoon. slept at 6 in the morning afta giving my darling a wake up call. met my darling at cine and it was a rainy dae.. played billiard then went down to cheers and slack. u noe the kinda rainy mood and we're both tired and broke. and fuck! sum shit cropped up that made me totally no mood on my fucking birthdae. shed tears on my burfdae. haiz. but its all over. my darling and i went for dinner at yoshi cos he sum how found money. then he gave me this really big surprise.. he sent me to the bus stop behind cine. i was like totally no mood cos i wanted to send him to somerset mrt so that we can see each other for a longer time.. 7 came just when i reached the bus stop. i was facing the ezlink machine when my darling rushed in and i din notice till i was gonna walk into the rear. lolx!~ so happy we played with the two bears he gave me for my burfdae. one of them is a koala bear and one is named sojo. a brown small bear. both very cute. =P when i reached home, my mom took this cake out and we had the kinda traditional burfdae celebration. make a wish, blow candle and cut cake. overall though an unhappie incident popped up todae, i still enjoyed my dae. i learned a few things in life. in life, the future is to look forward to, the present is to enjoy. the past is sumthing which we should onli look at the happie memories. we will not noe wads gonna happen tml. so why not just enjoy todae and not think about the past nor the future. =) i also learned to take things easy and not live in misery. sumhow its those kinda fuck care attitude. and i just realize that no one lives for a meaning.

woah~ todae is so fucking happening! todae is the happiest dae of my life manz!!! todae is so romantic. i must jot it down here! first, i left the hse round 1 to fetch my darling from his sch. then went to smoke, n went back to his hse. when we were leaving, my dear babie fluffy (my dar's doggie) gave me the sadsad look cos its her bdae. (27 may) *same as me~ okayz. i promised her a chicken drumstick on her bdae. so she was like tagging on to my jeans and crying. me and darling chiong go downstairs buy her chicken drumstick. she's like protecting her lovely drumstick sia. we look at her, she bite the drumstick go one korner. lolx~ so ke ai~ okayz. then we took a cab down to suntec. walk walk~~ and we saw sherrie. went to di siao her by walking up and down the shop she is working at. *fil a fil. okayz. then we wanted to walk to explanade see sunset. in the end very far so we tried walking to millenium walk there. and ended up at the sea side near explanade~ haha. we sit by the see, smoke, watch the sky. din realli get to see the yolk sink into the sea.. as we took a cab down to fareast, hurhur!! we saw this really big orangy yellow yolk setting!! so lovely! hehe. hug my dear and kiss him instantly wor! ok reach far east le, i bring him go buy a set of new couple ring. then engrave name on the outside. nice sia~ went to buy a star star earring for myself then went to take picture with him.. weee~ i alwaes wanted to take pic with my darling. keke.. then we took a bus down to cine and plae billiard. my billiard rawks on the first round, subsequently all sucked real hard. -.- nvmz. plae until round 9+ go eat yoshinoya. then go up plae again. plae until round 11+ then head for~~~~~ MS!!! weee. long time no go chiong le. wow the feeling of chionging is so great.. okays thats how i spend my wonderful bdae~ still got later part of the dae coming up manz! cant wait. gonna catch sum slp now. oh ya!! my darling bought me a ROSE! omg. i feel so pampered and happie. really love feels me in todae. woah. now i can realli sae.. IM LOVIN' IT! haha. yo~ its my burfdae! we're gonna party like its my burfdae =P!!!!

hmmmz. sianz. todae is a totally fucked up dae. fucking whole world keeps me waiting. dunno wads their problem. first in sch wait for the fucking office to photostat my early dismissal form like take ages like that. stupid sia. then afta that go home, wait for time to pass like machiam 24 hrs when its just that 2 hrs. left my hse around 3+ and met lionel. stupid fucker ask me help me buy ciggys. idiot sia... i rushing to meet my mother he still ask me lombang him cab home. so nvmz lo lombang lo. then went over my mom's office meet her and all then go SIR building make ic... wait again. damn long sia... then make ic wait finish still need to wait for the stupid passport one. zzz. ferget it. then afta tat went to sim lim and bought an ifrared thing which din work well. eeediot.. went hm, see doctor wait like 1 hr... summore is private clinic not polyclinic. knn.. nvmz... then hungree buy noodle wait another 20 mins lidat. wah lan eh. fucking long dae todae. sum unhappie things happened at night.. but... as long as he is happie then i'll just walk one step back and let things go.. as long as he treats me nicer, sweeter and loves me with all his heart. thats all i hope for.. =)

mondae blues~ zzz. okayz. todae babie earli morning 8+ come my hse.. slack and all.. then 2+ then go find my darling.. weee so happie! my darling cook for me. damn nice! imagine we whacked up 7 eggs by ourselves! haha. went to town and was kinda broke. farking sianz. then i kinda dua pitcha lobang. forgot that i was supposed to be 17 =x but nvmz. its all settled. went hm round 9+..

hmmz. sundaes. i hate sundaes... -.-" but its kinda alright todae except for sum unhappie issues. i bought a 6230 todae! muahaha... =x todae ish leon's and alex's bdae. happie bdae to them.. kinda bored...

todae is just like ani other saturdaes. plain slacking in town and billiard. woke up at 2 feeling feverish. todaes not that smooth afta all. haiz. i am feeling so confused so undecisive. i really cant handle my relationships with ani firm ans. mani questions feel me. however.. it alwaes ends of with but. example... chips are good to eat, but their fattening. dat kinda stuff. haiz. i am afraid of making wrong decisions. things are not goin that smooth animore.. i dun wanna pile on to my list of history. guess no one will understand how i feel nor wad i am saying. i just feel my brain floating, stoning. not knowing how to speak my mind.. its all about love... what is love?

woah. todae totally rawks. besides my runny nose and fever... todae felt so like saturdae. =x went to pp find my darlin then had lunch at his place. took a cab down town and went for a game of billiard. afta that slack and slack then go far east. my darling cut hair todae wor. so cute sia. =x then walk around... then went back to cine.. eat yoshi.. then go up 8 flr slack again. slack until sianz then go home le...

weeee. had a great dae todae. todae is my last dae of exams. finally~ afta sch, chiong hm and plae fl, wc3. then left the hse round 3+ go find my darling at his place. slack at his hse awhile, 5+ then go town. hehe. ate yoshi with him.. then went to walkwalk at second floor. went there to find a pressie for mom. todae's her bdae! hehe. hmmz. went hm arnd 7+. send my darling to mrt station and freakin sat the wrong bus. so alighted at orchard mrt there and took another bus.. -.- zzz waste my ezlink money. ok back at clementi, i went to hunt for a small cake and bought otah for my mom. her fav.. went hm, set up the cake, hide the pressie and off the lights. gave my mom a great big surprise cos she kinda tot i forgot that it was her birthdae todae. haha. celebrated her bdae with her in my room. make wish, blow candle, cut cake, and treasure hunt! i asked her to find her pressie in my room. =P she kinda smart. found it quite fast. she opened it and liked it alot. its a doraemon hp keychain. and a doraemon stuff toy. she loves doraemon =P okiex. just finish playing enfo with my darlin and he's gone to bed. so i guess i go catch sum sleep now. =) nitez~

all of ytd's bullshit. my darlin is so caring todae. he popped by my hse and gave me a surprise. so glad to see him. woke up afta 2 hrs of slp during my exams and had a bad headache. but the sight of my darling cured it all. hmmz. love him so much. muackx =P

todae's me and my darling's 10 mnths.. totally flung my chemistry. forgot to leave 3 fuckin lines for the english paper. solastri is gonna fuck me up. afta sch go home bathe change all go town find my dear. dunno to sae if its a gd dae or bad. hmmz guess i wun sae more bout it. just feeling very upset. feel like the world is spinning to fast. everything's beyond my control. everything seems like a dream yet so real... haiz.

hmmz. boring dae. todae had stupid e maths 1 paper and was late. started at 11 and ended at 1.. zz fairyland and nothing else. zzz

hmmmz. yawnz boring dae sia. -.- woke up at 12+ in the aftanoon. slack, study, FL, chat with my dear. thats it. then went to slp. zz wake up, eat plae fl and wc3 then goin to slp again. got emaths paper 1 tml manz.

todae... i dunno if its a gd dae or bad. woke up at 2+. went downt to town at about four. buay tahan my mother's fucker attitude. glad to finally leave the house. phew~ reach town plae pool with lynn then plae billiard with my darling. afta that slack slack and all. 11+pm le. zzz. feeling so fucked up. dun feel like going home and face the freaking black face. so sms her and went over to his house with babie. who knows mother call and kpkb. fuckin pissed off with her. kan her upside down. -.- in the end i dua du. so go home lo. grrr. becos of that blardie bitch quarrel with my stead. wads her fuckin problem. its like another 2 daes and its me and dear's anniversary. i dun wan unhappie things to sour our relationship. i dunno why but i am started to hate "her". started off quite sum time ago. not just. the sight of her turns me off. seriously. haiz. no one seems to understand me on the inside. mani might noe wads my character.. but lil or probably none noes wad i tink and how i feel. i dun tink i will sae since no one bothers to ask. tired of life. extremely. of cos that doesnt mean im gonna die or sumthing. just seriously sick and bored of it. this few daes, i look at my relationship with dear from different angles. i have a clear view of the whole. me and my darling are not as stable animore. i realli hope the holes will be filled and cracks will be mend. hope everything gets better and we have a long lasting relationship. i realli love him and will not gif him up no matter under what circumstances. i can hold on.. but can he? that is the question. i am realli so upset, so confused, so heartbrokened...

gd dae todae. though i flung my social studies, my lit was not that bad. erm, i feel~ haha. afta exam i went home then went town around 4+. billiard, slack till round 11+ then went to boat quay. went to clubx and met up with babie and the whole group of pple. wanted to go in X. but they sae wad underage all. no ic. nvm go BOMB. then in the end got ic everything. one friend no ic then the whole grp decided to go to this starlite ktv and pub to chill. zzz. this is so off mood. well, its all over. reached home like 3+ then slept at 6. -.-

went to school todae and came back at 11+am. lolx. sianz. darling went out wif his friends so i stay at home and rot and study my social studies and lit lo. zzz. so sianz.

grrr. rainy dae. got caught in the rain. stupid~ had a bad headache. and fucking pissed off with my fairyland. cos it cannot seem to load. zzz. sleep and sleep the whole dae. damn lethargic. zzz

hmmz. went to find my dear todae. he lost his poa book so i pia cab go toa payoh central and buy. cos he realli needed tat for his exams preperation. then went his downstairs and study with him, matthew and nathaniel. free pops yea~ haha. went back bout.. 8+.

yawnz. stayed at home and kinda study a lil. did nothing else....

hurhur. ton at my darlin's house last nite so din update. ytd we went to beach road to eat the char kway tiao and beef noodle. shiok sia. ichiban!! >.< then we went upstairs walkwalk and all. then we took a cab down to cine. afta that, went to cards n such at centrepoint. we both bought stuff for our mom. then went to his house. talk awhile then went to slp le. i will never forget that nite.. he hugged me tightly closely to him. i feel so safe. darlin i love u. then next morning. we pop ji ki.. then started to rest on the bed. when i was leaving, he gave me this keychain which he bluff me that it was for his mom. so happie! i love the keychain at the site of it. din noe he would buy it for me. the keychain is realli cute. got 3 small keychains attached to it. one heart, one lil plushie, and one steel rat. damn cute lo =x go home alreadi pass my mama the present. she so happie sia.

ermz. kinda bad start for the dae. haiz. bad memories. dun talk about it. but in town and all its not tat bad.. had fun with my dear. =)

din go sch todae. exams are like tml. rawr. studied my geog for tml and slacked at home. zzz so sian todae. nothing much happened just that i was having this real bad headache and cramps. nah dun tink about red red.. its just leg cramps. ^.^ yawnz. gotta slp earli and prepare for tml's exam. ntiez. zZzZzZzZzZ

hmmz. went to sch todae. miracle huh? no la cos todae got oral. in school its just the stupid boring periods where teacher go in and outta class. did my own things. study, slp, eat and blah~ it started to rain when i was on my wae home. sianzz. went home, slack awhile. and its like 2.50 alreadi. hurhur. my oral exam starts at 3.15. run to the bus stop. then the stupid 285 take so long to come. its like 3.08 and im still in clementi. lolx heart pokpok kiao sia. haha. still raining sia. ran from the bus stop to sch. was panting awae like a bitch. but i was luckie that i made it. oral was a breeze. talk about wad stupid fear and all. -.-"

zzz. din go sch todae. tml oral alreadi sia. so fast going to mid yr alreadi. ya funi eh. and my mid yr exams is like starting this fridae. like wtf! hmmz. did nothing todae. just rot around at home...

me and my darling also never go sch todae. talk and talk thats all we did. i kinda tore out all the pages from my txtbk to study for exams. but i dun seem to have ani motivation or ani confidence in myself. i do not wanna take exams at all. i do not wanna face sch. -.-" grr.

weeee! so tired. i am like just back from malaysia. okay let me give a brief explanation of wad i did and etc. first dae. the bus ride was damn shiok. the air con like fucking cold lo! until i had to buy a blanket and jacket. lolx. okie then we reached genting round... 6+am. due to sum stupid traffic jam and all. we check in to first world hotel. nows the funni part. the toilet is splitted into two cubicals. and when i sae CUBICALS i MEAN cubicals. -.-" its like u cant even stretch out ur arms. one is for shower and one is just a toilet bowl. the basin is rite infront of the main door. like wtf rite? -_-|| okayz then me and darling went out for a walk and my mom went to the casino. me and my dear tried to hiong into the casino but... mission failed. =x then we walkwalk here and there. went to arcade to dance para, plae invasion game and all. haha. time pass freakin fast. 11+ le. we chiong back hotel room then check out. afta that went to the theme park. WOOO! best part of the hol manz! we queued up for like one hr or sumthing for this space shot ride. haha. wow! heart seriously POKPOK KIAO! haha. but fucking shiok. then afta that around 3pm we took a cab down to KL Prince Hotel. woah this hotel room is like 5 times the size of that in genting. the toilet is like HUGE! one bath tub. one shower. on toilet bowl. one big basin. one big wall cabinet. shiok sia. lolx. okayz. change, bathe and all that bull shit then we went out again. we took a cabbie to jucheong st. lots and lots of stuff manz. got immitations, bags, shoes, wallets, watches, i guess u name it they have it bahz. then we went to times square walkwalk. bad time. fucking duadu with my mother. zzz. went back to hotel afta that. and slacked at my darling's room. smoke and smoke and smoke. god's ciggys. haha! soooo fucking cheap alright! like 2 sing dollars. lolx. then at nite went to sultan ismail. sumthing like singapore's boatquay lidat. all the pubs and all. kinda cool. they plae retro and all there. then went back hotel orhorh. this morning, woke up at like 9+ then went for the hotel breakfast. not bad. at least better than that of genting's. then we went over to sungei wang. lot10. and bukit bintang. bought this topshop vintage lookin jeans. damn nice. then bought this stussy shirt. woah~ walkwalk here and there. then went to eat. afta that went back to the hotel and wait for the stupid bus. slowly we travel and there POP! we're back in singapore! haha.