surprises, plans, gifts, ideas, thoughts... were all running through my head these days. was wondering really hard on what to get him or do for him on his birthday. which is just round the corner on 8th Jul. its his 21st birthday and would really like to get him something meaningful yet practical.. with the help of some friends, i finally came up with ideas on his present. and concluded where to bring him for an unforgettable dinner. hopefully everything will turn out just fine..

sadly, one of the surprises ruined due to his and my own temptation. i gave him his pressie in advance! he really liked it very much.. its actually quite right for him to have his pressie before his birthday since he could use it on his birthday itself =) will update with more pics after his actual birthday.. =)

the strong heart of breaking ties...

Mr. Ho,

Kindly quit contacting Mary and myself. I have had quite enough of your messages. Honestly, whether you actually sms me on my birthday has no effect on me. In fact, it gives me the creeps when you put on your 'mask' and keep explaining about you being overseas and stuff. I seriously don't need any explanation from you.

It's sad enough to have a childhood like mine. With parents working all day through my young times.. There's no one to blame as money was essential. But least thing a father could do for the family would be to shower his wife and children with least the slightest bit of love and care. Instead, please reflect on what you did, you excelled being an alcoholic and a womanizer. You think it's sweet to show your daughter a picture of your son which you bore with another woman? Think again. Apparently, you never knew how disgusted I was. You might fire back telling me tales of how you took me out for sports activities and meals. To think if you had the cheek to talk about it, then lets see, at which point of time you were not plainly thinking bout the money I had in my kids' savings account. Only when I grew up, did I know what you were actually driving at.

Now, I'm no longer the naive little daughter you once had. I've grown into a happy lady who has already walked out of her sad childhood shadows. My mother will be the only one within my kinship. I thank you for all the pictures you drew up when I was young. Please, just move on with your life and let others move on with theirs as well. Save the 10 cents you use for seasonal greetings on us. We really don't need it. Thanks. This will be my last contact towards you.

Signing off,
May.

so darn moody now.. slept and rot the whole day through at home.. got nothing to do now while i wait for Austria vs Croatia match to start. least im glad that euro2008 is like finally here. havent been doing much blogging except for uploading pics.. so guess i'll text a lil..

finally got my tattoo which i longed for.. pretty much satisfied. bout the pain level and stuff.. its indeed bearable. just that when it reaches sensitive areas or boney parts it'll hurt quite abit. shading is nothing compared to the outline.. apparently feel nothing. its fully healed already and i think i have to go for a touch up or something.. and i finally understand how addictive tattoo can be. haha. im thinking of getting another one on my back..

bored bored bored.. after being with jason for like 2 months, yet again i feel singapore is so darn small. we're kinda out of places to go. even stretching out to jb.. been there twice and its like getting boring except the eating and cigarettes. im low in cash nowadays and it makes me feel so out of confidence. i cant buy this buy that. cant eat this eat that. but somehow, being broke taught me to save up. was in town few days back. saw this shirt at esprit priced at $79.90. if it was me back then, i would have just grabbed it. but now.. i told jason.. to be considered.. and walked away.. wonder if its a good thing or bad. its making me unhappy. but on the other hand, its a good thing to think this way.

gave up school yet again. im sorry char dearie. im just not a study kinda person. i cant face books. and i figured that i should go for something more hands on. prolly pet grooming, bartending, or something of that sort. least im working..

goals set and hoping to reach out to them asap.
-cut down/quit smoking.
-work every weekday.
-win more money!! haha. ok crap. just hope i win tonight ^^