alrite alrite.. its been a month since i typed shiet in here. well. life's changed. ive quit sch once again. lol. those people out there who looked down on me when i left tanglin.. go ahead.. its not about not being able to do it. its just that my views have changed. now to me. its money. i wanna earn more money and get more savings. i wanna build up funds for my future. for my bike and car nxt yr.. for my hse in future.. for my kids nxt time.. theres sooo much to worry about. currently im working at this company named doctorslab. basically its an easy job. im working part time there. mons to fris 1pm till 9pm. sats 1pm till 5pm. see. get why i seriously dun have much time to blog and stuff? i dun even have time to go out and all. unless after work till about 2am. and whose gonna be the ones going out with me? lol. its just me and my guy. since that heated argument with 'the mother'.. i sorta moved out. now my life is just plain.. and simple. and im lovin it. for the nxt 2 mnths its gonna stay the same. mons to fris. 1-9pm is work. 9-2am is out. 2am-4am is maple. 4-11am is slp. thats it. hoping to save more. thats my only goal now. i give up accounting. seriously. i just dun have the heart to carry on. last time. when my sweetie wakes me up for sch at like 12pm. i'll just give him that darn grumpy face and ask him to stay away from my beauty slp. now.. he just shakes me a lil at 10.45am and my eyes will simply open wide. nxt thing u know im already bathing and preparing to go to work. its all money talk. if i really study soo much.. i'll just be of a higher status in the society. earning prolly about 2k-2.5k when i fresh grad. now i dun even freaking have an o lvl cert. im earning 1k per mnth. and now my company is offering me to be a deputy there. and even allowing me to choose my own department which im keen in working. if i take up the offer. my mnthly pay will be least 1.5-2k. c'mon.. with that monthly 1.5-2k.. i can lead a simple life. just work and a lil bit of enjoyment thru the weekends. workload is much lesser being of a lower status than a higher. like duh.. so i guess i'll just take the easy way out. i dun care if i live in a 3rm hdb flat in the future. i dun care if i can only afford a mazda2. i dun care if i cant eat swensens and sip on at coffee bean everyday. i will just be proud that wadeva i own. is of my own money. my own hard earn cash. i seriously despise those people born with a silver spoon in their mouth. thinking that money just fall from no where. the just pass their license and they get a skyline or sumthing.. and thats me. yes.. 'the mother' actually strived to bring me up. my family was poor in the past. she strived and went all out for money. she took 3 jobs a dae. teaching. accounts. consultant. and now im sitting in a rich family. but no.. im no happie or proud about it. i wanna have things which i can solely call them mine. which i paid and worked for.. not really everything is fair. ive alwaes remind myself. when u die.. can u actually bring those 50 dollar bills with u into the coffin? can u bring ur house down with u forever? answer is no. so why not just save up a lil. enough for ur future. just a lil for ur kid till he/she is about 20. and they can stand on their own. ive said this before. i dun wanna live up to old age. i just hope to live till the longest age of 56. if i die earlier.. im more than glad =) cos life's a struggle. life's a game.