woo~ the hols have hit the year again! its partay time!.. NOT.. lol. hols are really none of my biz. but yea least i get to find myself sum extra cash during the "school holidae" period. where my mom will like finally allow me to work in her office. really tiring man. morning wake up at like wad.. 6.30am and bathe right early in the morning. that sucks i swear. from sun to mon i had like 2 hrs of slp. mon to tues i had 4hrs of slp. tues to todae i had like another merely 5 hrs of slp. lol 11/72hrs is terror manz! but still. least i get income. haha. its worth it. i feel like watching so many movies but just dun have the time sia. watched robots and hitch already. i wanna watch.. son of the mask. a series of unfortunate events. howl's moving castle. house of fury. theres just too mani movies but so lil time! haha. suckie.. been back to skating and i am really rustie already. omg. my mom just came in and said that my black eye bags are worse than a panda's. who cares. wads makeup for? haha. aniwae. this is a nice song.. it has nothing got to do with me nor my life. just a song which i find nice.
"Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson" Here's the thing We started out friends It was cool, but it was all pretend Yeah, yeah, since you been gone Dedicated, you took the time Wasn't long till I called you mine Yeah, yeah, since you been gone And all you'd ever hear me say Is how I picture me with you That's all you'd ever hear me say But since you been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah Thanks to you, now I get what I want Since you been gone How can I put it, you put me on I even fell for that stupid love song Yeah, yeah, since you been gone How come I'd never hear you say I just wanna be with you Guess you never felt that way But since you been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want Since you been gone You had your chance, you blew it Out of sight, out of mind Shut your mouth, I just can't take it Again and again and again and again Since you been gone (since you been gone) I can breathe for the first time I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah Thanks to you (thanks to you) Now I get, I get what I want I can breathe for the first time I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah Thanks to you (thanks to you) Now I get (I get) You should know (you should know) that I get I get what I want Since you been gone Since you been gone Since you been gone..

teach me how to trust u.. tell me.. u lied... it wasnt a white lie. it was a hurting one. u said u were forced to. u did not have a choice. BULLSHIT! uve really got me crossed this time. no. more of disappointment. ure willing to die for me.. cry for me.. why the fuck are u treating me like that when im back with u. i pick up the fone.. hi.. and a pindrop can even be heard for the rest of the call. wads this? i really ask myself.. am i really that fucked up that u dun even wanna see me? if i am why did u want me back. askin me to trust u? askin why i din trust u? this is the reason why.. when i learn to trust u, u fail me. how do u wan me to really trust u. how! tell me how. put urself into my shoes. how fucked up will u feel. scold me.. fuck me up.. hang up on me.. do anithing u like and i dun mind. pple have feelings.. u wan to then ok.. do u have to treat me like this? god.. wad on earth have i actually done wrong to deserve a relationship like this. all i wan is just to have a pure and simple relationship where i love u and u love me. that simple. is that really that difficult.. i guess im really that bad.. im just a demanding bitch who doesnt care about others feelings.. im just a lonely and bored teen who rots at home. im destined to live a fucked up life and jinx everyone around me. im not even worth to be hated. do u wan me to let go? its really ur choice.. tell me if u want to. i will unwillingly do it. i drag on my stick and think... im really useless. im just a quit sch kid who havent finished o lvls and who's future is unsured of. i'll be patient.. i'll wait for an answer.. life is all about waiting isnt it.. i will... i will not stop lovin u till the dae u stop lovin me. its not a promise but a goal that is buried in my heart... nite of tears n fearful thoughts.....

emptiness and boredom feels me in.. had a great dae ytd but todae is so goner.. tell me u love me.. tell me u care. cos i really hope to hear it. cuddle me kiss me.. thats all i want. i really love u. been into monsterandme these daes. its a kinda handicap game. im so pressurised and i feel like the piece of sky is crumbling upon me. im going into icpas.. in stupid terms. its called Institute of Certified Public Accountants of Singapore's. chim huh. yes and i'll been going through that shiet in july. flipped through my higher accounting bk last nite and din seem to really be able to understand. but sumhow i think things will work out if i read on and study harder. im so bored till i actually got carried away by art attack while bloggin. stupid huh. im so goin to mould if life continues like that. its so mono.. no colours just black and white. and my job is only going to start in july also. as a part-time admin cum junior accountant. helping my mom out in her office. gotta go bathe at like 6.. thats like darn boring. todae's higher accounting again. yawn. gonna go watch my monsterandme macro while i listen to sum mp3s..