hmm. its been quite awhile since i blogged huh.. this month my temper's been really horrible. scary till its as if i dun even noe wad i am doing or saying. i feel like im a totally different person.. but glad to sae.. i tink im back to myself again. last nite was a big nite. not big as in partying and all. but big in the sense that it thought me a great lesson. that i stand a perfectly great position in my sweetie pie's heart. we've gone through so much and we decided that we'll not let any trivial matters ruin our lovely relationship. we both broke into tears and realize how much we love each other. i feel so guilty for wad i have done. here, i would like to sincerely apologize to u darling.. todae, he came over to my place and we made sushi together. im kinda proud of myself todae. how i controlled my temper and think carefully before i jump into conclusions. my darlin kept wanting to plae gunbound which i sumhow felt it irritating and leftout at the beginning. but i chilled and thought it through.. his computer is down and i can do that bit by easing his crave to plae gb. aniwae it aint that bad. he gave me his attention too. he kissed me, talked to me while playin his game. sumtimes in life, it takes some ignorance and tolerance to solve problems. it aint that bad to just cool down for that 5 seconds and think about why, what and stuff like that.. right.. my tamagotchi is like 7 yrs old already! haha. and yea! my darling's blue tamagotchi spoilt. and i bought him another black one. it cost 15 bucks and though its second hand, he really appreciated it. well.. i was hunting for it through ebay, yahooauctions and all the whole evening. and trying to contact the seller.. fortunately he was able to do the trade the next dae. haha~ well. nothing is impossible.. u just have to try and put in ur best effort. suddenly i miss school alot. not that i regret quittin. but i just miss the wae the teachers preach non-stop. and how the rules agitated me. how my classmates use to chat alot in class during lessons and get reprimanded. its all over though. but yea it still floats in my memory. off to plae some warcraft and get some slp. =)

hmmz. todae's kinda exciting. my darling came over after his exams. well.. he was like treasuring hunting and flipping my whole house around.. alright.. my room to be exact.. he was hunting for his anniversary pressie. oo. ok.. todae is our 1 yr 1 mnth of being together already. extremely long for me. boyfriends used to be a piece of tissue. use already throw. but selwyn is so different. he is the first guy who i am so determined to love. ok enough of this love love thinggey. bout todae.. i finally cant bear to see his cute cute, pitiful face and told him where i hid it.. as usual.. he's soo cunning.. lol. i got him a tamagotchi and was in the process of stitching a winnie the pooh pic and put in a photo frame. and well done! all the surprise gone!! nvmz. the smile of his face did melt my heart. we went to central and bought another pink tamagotchi for myself. and we started infra-reding. yea its the new 2004 series tamagotchi where u can mate and give birth to tamababies. haha. cute eh.. then.. he sent me to class and went home to catchup with his studies. i kept checking my lil babie while i was in class. haha. but it fell asleep not long and till now its still fucking slping! grrr.. well.. my plans for "later" is to fetch him from sch and study at spinelli. then prolly plae a game or two of billiard and go home. kinda boring yea. but wad to do manz. its his exams period and wad more can u expect when its a wednesday. its still the weekdae blues.. gotta go catch sum slp now or i wun be able to get up tml. blahz.

borin dae. hardcore warcraft thats it.. my darling was studyin for his upcoming prelims downstairs and din talk to him much on the fone tonight. im starting to kinda miss school.. the homework.. the revision.. the rules.. the yells and screams of teachers... getting scolded for not doing hmwk. for sleeping in class. for skipping class. for playing truant. haha.. dunno why am i feeling this wae. prolly life is at a 360 turn right now where im supposed to rot at home. and go for my nite classes on tues and thurs. its kinda slack though. rather than getting up in the mornin and drag myself to sch. remember the times when i got up late on purpose.. when i took 285 round about, pass my school and back home and tell my mom that im late and dun wanna get punished. well.. smiles will still flash thru my face when my brain scans thru these images. my darling and i are coming to 1 yr 1 mnth of being together. things are going really smoothly.. after he was sick. he seemed to love me more n start cherishing me more than usual. like that feeling loads. but its making me feel that im not treating him good enuff.. not loving him enough.. am i? i kinda feel thats theres still room for improvement.. is there? wondering wad to get for him for our anniversary pressie. really broke these daes.. spending lots of ciggys.. oh yeah. we m.i.a-ed from cineleisure already. wad a relief.. =P hmm at least i wun have to worrie that much nemorez. hmmm. hope everythign in my life would go smoothly. and i'll just let nature takes its course. hoping to lead a happie life for me.. my mom.. and him..

hmmmz. fun dae todae. aniwaes. todae is national dae! yea and i spent it with my darling.. went out at like 5? met him at explanade beside there. waited for like 45mins? walk up and down the whole stretch of stalls 6 times. lolx. and finally he came. he no more wax so never style hair. but in my heart still as cute and yandao la. =P hmm. then we went for a bite with his mom, dad, brother and grandmom. cool~ well, then we went walkwalk. and guess wad! we saw fireworks. not the full view of it but at least we did see it sparkle in the sky. and another thing which made me so glad! he bought me the love pearl! cos i somehow stupid stupid lost the pearl last time. then this time its the clam shell locket. which is impossible for the pearl to drop out. weee! so nice sia. well its gettin late.. so gotta make our wae home. i made him miss his train and he was kinda dua du. so sorrie =( reach home i still feeling abit siansian. but in the end my darling installed his warcraft.. like hell noes how he did it. then we played warcraft since like 12.10am till now~ muahaha. addictive sia. so fun~ played so mani different maps. gotta slp now. darling coming over tml. cant wait manz. he sae he gonna send me to school~ weeee!!! aniwaes... my mood is kinda better todae. cheered up a lil. =)

wtf sia.. these few daes feeling so moodie. dunno wads botherin me. everything is just so not right. i left the house at 8+ last nite to town just to meet my darlin. its soo first time. im goin to town when pple were on their wae home. zzz. boring mondae. seriousli feeling the mondae blues striking me. my sweetie has to help out his grandma in some sellin of kuehs. and i dunno if i should go down. cant even decide these lil things. thats the whole problem with me these daes! yea! ytd i dun even wanna go out. onli till 7+pm did i have the sudden urge. todae. im like stuck at home. no mood to go out. my mom asked if i wanna go suntec with her.. but it seemed so turnoff to me. so i just said no. but i feel like going out. prolly just not with her. im feelin so moodie and bored right now. fairyland is gonna go p2p and i dun have ne games to plae. well, i was like hooked on to minesweeper. haha. how lame. i can just on my mp3s and lay dead on the bed. seriousli this is wad i call slacker. i dunno wad i wanna do or prolly its wad i can do.. my room lights are off. air con's off too. tv's off. everything is off except my com. and im just sitting infront of my com staring at the fuckin monitor. wads this man... zzz...

zzz. sian ah todae. earli morning 5.30 take train go my darlin's hse. was sooo fuckin slpie. erm. reached his hse and his temperature was like 39.4. omg manz. im so tensed. dunno wad to do.. asked him to get changed and all and rushed a cab to toa payoh. yeah! and fuck that 100 service.. tell me that clinic is 24hr. reach there its closed. thanks to them. then went over to thomson medical centre. was waiting to be consulted at 8am. fell asleep while waiting sia. after seeing doctor, we bought delifrance home. then took a cab back. the whole thing seemed so slow.. when we got home it was like 8.45 lidat. fell asleep straight away and woke up at 2+. went home on a cab. wad kinda fuckin saturdae is man. this is the worst saturdae i ever had. never go out with anibodie. well if u consider as rushing to a clinic as going out.. hopefully he'll be alright by next weekend. so we can enjoy a dae out. but.. i dun even think we will be out even he's okay. he's prelims are starting on the 13th. hope he fairs well.. went to ikea with my mom at 7+. cant stand the boredom. staying at home on a saturdae evening is just so not right. well. i bought a new desk which im love loads. so pinkie! haha. hmmz im goin to buy more new furnitures for my room. i sure will =P hmmm. gotta go slp now. so fuckin tired...

hurhur. im still standing strong! im still awake. muahaha. this is lame. yawnz. im so worried bout him. dunno if i should phone him and ask him how he's feelin now. how i wish 5.30am is just 5 mins away. so i wun have to wait any longer to rush to his place. dunno wad im gonna do todae after bring him to a doc. sobx. prolly it'll be the first sat in a long while where i'll spend it alone. >.< sobx~

im so worried bout my darling. he's body is flaming and he's sick in bed. im feel so useless. not even able to be there for him. how i wished i could be there, watching him through the night. put ice on his forehead for him. wipe his sweat in the middle of the night when his asleep. but now. im at home in my fuckin room updating this shit bout how i feel. and theres nothing i can do! like wad the fark. im not gonna slp. but i just dunno how am i supposed to stay awake. im gonna rush to his hse on the first train and get him to a 24-hr clinic. i wonder how is he feeling. his prelims are starting on the 13th and his so stressed out and unprepared i can tell. i, as his girlfriend, cant do anithing. gawd... not looking for any wonderful saturdae tml. just gonna get him to a doctor and go home after that or prolly watch him through his rest tml. help... i gotta find sumthing to do to keep me awake...

gawd.. wad a week. hmmz. well lets talk about todae first. got dragged off bed by my mom at 12+. so freakin tired. but hell cares. im gonna go shop my toes off! =x okay. i bought another levis jeans, a levis shirt, a converse shoe, a watch and a book! hehe. well. i go levis shopping every fortnight =P hmmz. daes are going real smooth and steady for me and my darling. things are starting to straighten out. and im really glad bout that. we dun even quarrel animore. though i feel kinda wierd without us shouting at each other but yea its definitely better! well... we've taken many pics together recently. became photo addicts =P oh ya! how could i have forgot~ he bought me a baby blue coloured ashtray. looks really nice. cant bare to use =x its gd though. its cutting down on my smoking. im so worried and troubled these daes by him. dun really have to mention the exact situation here. the words stress, tears, memories and all are just concerned. i really hope he really does overcome this shit. sobx. im just gonna let time solve everything. not gonna think bout anithing.. guess thats the best wae. i'll just try and put in sufficient effort to make him feel as comfortable as he should.. i wanna be a perfect girlfriend. and thats my aim from now. my goal. my life...