well... todae was a great dae i must admit. my darling came over all the wae from potong pasir to clementi just to look for me =) hmmz. yea and we went to eat pizza hut at jelita. its been kinda a long time since ive been there. went down to pot black next. woah!! billiard todae was real gd. both of us played so well. then we went over to far east for a walk. by that time it was already like 6+! hurhur.. time pass so slow todae. we though it would be like 7+ or sumthing already. everything went so smooth and slow paced. go far east walkwalk and stuff then my darling bought me this 4 leaf clover bracelet. another 2 chains and a sunglasses for himself.. he look real cool in it. went to 77th street and bought 6 fuckbands. he din like me wearing alot all the while. but yea he actually bought summore for me! wee~ and he started to wear them too =P alrightz!! haha. then there was this straits time pocket money fund thing hosted right infront of fareast. they were like jamming songs from guns and roses and stuff. soo cool ok. and we saw this female drummer. woo. she's one hot chick back there ya. ohhh!! and we took picture together too. the pics were so nice. wad that made me so relaxed todae is that i have finally put down the rock in my heart. i told him how i totally felt about him and myself. and he aint angry at all. moreover he's there to ensure me and be there for me. i aint feeling as horrible as ytd animore. i feel more chilled... thanks to selwyn.  muackx.

why... why must things happen time after time.. why is everybodie treating me like this. making my life difficult for me? life is just so unfair. and meaningless. pointless.. argh. wadeva. i dunno wad the fuck am i talkin bout. i dun even noe wad im doing in my fuckin life. wasting my life away. though im studying accounting but.. everydae all i do is sit at home facing my computer. slackin away. i honestly dun feel gd doing nothing and just taking my money from my mom. i dun wish anithing to happen to her as well. im so worried. suddenli feel so lonely. so no life. so dead. does anione noe the pain deep in my heart? how i feel when they do such hurting things to me? does anione noe how i cry myself to sleep everynite? does anione even understands me? i dun even understand myself. my family is all broken up into pieces. ive got a older sis from no where. a younger brother in malaysia. its like wtf.. things are just going so wrong.. cant anibodie be loyal to me? listen to me? help me? love me? care for me? let me rely on? lend me a shoulder? be there when i need them to? i guess just nobodie would understand how i feel. i dunno how im supposed to carry on in life. im feelin so helpless allowing anibodie to cheat on me. wads this... im feeling so suicidal..

life is so not right for me. everything is happening in ultra fast speed and i cant take it animore. aniwaes. things to celebrate is that i am alreadi in a more than one yr relationship with my sweetie, and that i already left tanglin. im now in my intermediate course in accounting already~ wee. alrightz. but joy is joy. there are still things which struck me right in the heart. family problems and stuff like that. really lost for words when the news broke. but life is just like that. seems like i have no choice to accept facts. just hope that selwyn can be there for me and help me through my hardships. thanks to him, he gave me loads of advice and brought me to who i am todae. strong and optimistic me.. =) thankew darling love ya loads.

its been quite some time since i updated this shit. hmmz. mani things happened these daes. kinda bz. well.. my darling bought me this love pearl necklace. so nice =) im so glad. yea.. and me and my sweetie is like 7 daes away from our one yr anniversary. cool huh. dunno how it will turn out like. hope nothing crops up.. slackin around these daes. nothing much to do. only fetch my darling from sch, go for my nite class and go out. thats all. and plae fairyland throught the nite.

hmmz. woke up at like 12+ todae. then went to jurong to pae for my sch fees then went down to orchard. walk walk walk. bought a levis jeans.. bought a book named the catch. a book-keeping book then bought a belt.. weee~

hmmmz. went to town todae.. wanted to watch movie but there were no sits. so went for billiard and all. then went far east walkwalk then went home le.

hmmmz.went out with my dardar todae. went to town. plae billiard eat yoshi and stuff. sumhow ended up being very unhappie. but afta awhile, we kinda chilled. went to heeren walkwalk then bought movenpick ice cream to eat. afta tat we went to fareast. my darling bought this real small and cute lil zippo for me. like it so much. then we went over to cine to plae billiard again. me, jason and my darling plaed 3 player. was sumhow a nice game. so mani pple was looking. so paiseh =x then we went home le. i ton at dar's hse..

hmmm. todae never go and meet my ddarling. was at hm. boring sia.. then at nite went for my class. -.-" thats it..